Rights Sold: Simplified Chinese rights for Mainland China

Private diary, please do not touch.

I am an ordinary high-school student, studying at B class. I am not interested in studying. Everyday, I am daydreaming, playing with my pen or drawing on the textbook during the lessons. I lead my life slovenly and lazily in school. I always quarrel with my mum at home. As I could not stand her for nagging me, I go to work at a club at my friend’s invitation.

I neglect my homework even more due to my part time job. One day, my classmate that I admired accidentally saw me violating the school rules. It was the most awkward moment. I always feel inferior in front of him as he is very outstanding and I am labeled as “B class’s student”. Now, I feel more ashamed. I am afraid that he will look down on me and alienate me. Thus, I am feeling down.

Youth is not hot-blooded and beautiful as a movie. It is just a vague period that full of the distances between reality and dream, emotional tug of war and the panic towards the unknown future. The working day is also not totally happy. I am struggling between working and studying. I keep asking myself: what kind of future shall I choose when I am standing in front of the intersection of life?