What happens when “forever” suddenly ends?

A deeply honest record of surviving the time after goodbye.

This book is a tender, reflective essay by a woman who faced her husband’s sudden illness and loss in her early thirties.
With calm honesty and quiet strength, she writes about the moments that followed: the shock of diagnosis, the fragile hope of recovery, the ache of farewell, and the long, slow process of returning to everyday life. Each essay captures how love evolves through joy, fear, grief, and the silence that remains.

But this isn’t simply a story of loss—it’s about what continues after goodbye. How sorrow reshapes us, how love takes new forms, and how, even in absence, tenderness lingers.
Gentle, deeply moving, and beautifully written, this book reminds us that love doesn’t disappear with loss—it lives on in the courage to keep living.

After everything collapsed, she began to rewrite herself. From the moment she chose not to turn away from pain, both her life and her writing changed. This book is the record of that time.

Prologue – Left All Alone
Chapter 1. What I Believed Was Love
Chapter 2. Time That Wasn’t on My Side
Chapter 3. A Faint Light
Chapter 4. Perfect Happiness
Epilogue – What Couldn’t Be Said
To You, To My Daughter, To Myself